Eczema

Eczema is a disease

that breaks the surface of your smooth skin

and appear in ugly patches

all over your body,forcing you to

cover them up to

hide yourself 

from a society that is quick to judge.

Even though that ugly,red patch

is not your fault at all

nor your parents' fault too

because it's hereditary

and even though you couldn't help it,

you worry everyday that

your classmates will find out

and that will give them a reason to point and stare,

as though they are watching the rare creature that the school had acquired

to keep them amused.

And in a way eczema makes you so "special" that

your school mates can remember you for so many years,

as the classmate that is "strangely discolored".

The classmate that

looks like a two-toned eye shadow.

The classmate that

looks like a torn up doll with patches all over her.

The classmate that smells like sewage because they think that 

the ugly patches are what's causing the smell. 

But you can't help it.

So you were left alone in the night

scratching,

scratching,

and scratching

even though it's already staining your fingers with 

the blood that your heart desperately

wants to pour out from your tired soul.

You went on scratching,

hoping that if you scratched it hard enough,

that ugly,red patch would actually disappear

under your bloodstained fingernails and that from that day on ,

it'll only appear in your nightmares.

But that never happened.

And as you grow up,

You begin to realize that 

you are growing patches all over your heart.

Each patch etched on by another

person that 

you willingly gave your heart to

and.you.can't.escape.

Almost like someone bound you onto

a gigantic rock and

threw you into the sea,

never meant to rise to the surface again.

You begin to realize that your heart

itches so much just to 

hear their voice,

see their face,

feel their warmth,

smell their perfume or cologne,

but that's all it'll ever be.

An itch from an ugly patch 

forever carved into your heart

that will never be satisfied

no matter how hard your scratched it.

It is the

"Eczema of the heart".